Mixed Signals

Why am I feeling this way?

To feel this bottled sense of annoyance rising within..

I should not even feel a twinge of such emotion... should not..

Much less replaying scenelets in my little head, in a self-absorbing attempt to decipher self-eluding actions to feed the narcissist in me.

What am I doing?

Having a mid life crisis? In need of external validation?

I MUST snap out of this... and channel my energies into something more worthy.

Can't play the field no more.. at least not with this group of players.

Barking up the wrong tree indeed